I've recently been trying to... I'm not sure, I want to say rediscover myself, but honestly I don't know if I've ever had a self to discover or a self that had been discovered before. It's true that when faced with a life-altering issue, you really do re-evaluate. Sure I would have been much happier to have developed a grinding headache and a note from the Universe that read, "Hey! It's time to slow down." Unfortunately, I was given a much larger, not-able-to-be-ignored wake up call. So, here I am. Where that is, I don't know.
What I do know is that I won't keep working for clients that don't either pay me what I'm worth or value what I bring to the table. I've started setting actual office hours (even though my office is in a corner of the living room) I start at a decent hour and I stop at 5 p.m. It was very hard to turn the computer completely off at 5, and I was convinced that something earth shattering was going to happen and I'd miss it. Know what I realized? Nothing has happened that I have missed out on between the hours of 5 p.m. and 8 a.m.! Who knew!
As for my happiness project... I have been reading a book by the same name by Gretchen Rubin. The book is about the author's quest to be happy. It seems, and sounds so simple, doesn't it? Truly, it's not. I'm working through the chapters and am enjoying reading the author's struggles. I mean, everyone knows that you should go to bed early and get a good eight to ten hours sleep to truly function at the highest level, but for people with families, careers, and outside interests, it's not always feasible to crawl into bed at 9 p.m.
I'm on a quest to find out what makes me happy and I'm finding it doesn't even have to be anything big. Sure, I'd never turn down a Vera Bradley bag as they always make me happy, but I've been learning to find happiness in simple things -- taking an actual lunch break during the workday, being able to take Henrietta for a walk, watching the tomatoes in the planters get ripe enough to eat.